January 26, 2011

share with me now.

Was it really that hard to get to the D-day?

Dear friends, I would ask you to share with me. Especially those who are married.

With all the dramas, the crying, the desperation, the what on earth you call them, I feel it's so freaking hard to survive. The wedding is a month away now. And at this very moment I type, I'm not talking to my boyfriend for two days now. Not very surprising I guess?!

There are just a lot of things to do, to think of, to get along with that I need to have a huge heart and an endless patience to make all those things work. Especially when you're doing it alone without a professional help. I feel super tired, disrespected, and everything I do is wrong according to others. *sigh*

Not to mention, people from the past start coming into your life (again) doing things only they could understand. They popped out of nowhere and build doubts in your heart. They started to comfort you and 'be there for you' while your loved ones is busy doing his work. Suddenly they become a hero that saves you from all the insanities.

I know when I get pass through this, I will survive safe and sound until the D-day.

surviving,
coffee.stains

January 25, 2011

a promise to myself

Wah! Saya berjanji akan segera menulis lagi.

I miss writing and I will definitely going to write soon. There are a lot of stories to tell!

So, I will see you soon.


promising,
coffee.stains.