April 25, 2009

Shit Happens!

Today ends up to be a very sucky day!

Darn! Today is supposed to be a lovely day! Like my status I suppose to be a single lady but unavailable. Why? Because today I don't have Pappoo. He's touring with his Thunder friends.

I did not see the signs clearly! I have plans for today. All of a sudden, my very first plan was canceled but I can take it wisely. Well, that's fine. Secondly, my black-stupid-berry is again asked to be murdered. I can't type some alphabets on the keyboard and its getting in my nerve since almost a week. It's getting worse today. Thanks to the black-stupid-berry. Tomorrow I will have to go and fix it (or kill it).

Then I thought it was getting better since I went out with a friend who I haven't met in quite some times. And yes, we had our fun today. Thanks to my special Wasabi! We had coffee and did window shopping. We get back home at about 4.

At home, I was making up my room, since I haven't done it in (also) quite some times. Thank God today I was in the mood for that. So, this does not count as one of the terrible things happened today. It might be the best thing ever of the day, beside my fun time with my Wasabi! I definitely will sleep well tonight (plus I have taken my medicine).

Time passed by, I had to go to Lippo again with my Mom. Because my Dad, Cousin, and my Dad's relatives had gone there first. So we planned to meet up there. I went shopping with my Mom at the food mart. We bought things for Granpa. Coz we plan on taking all of those to him tomorrow morning. After paying the shops, there was something strange there. What we bought was more or less are common things, but we pay for like the price of everything. Mom paid for almost IDR 550.000. Curious with all that, we then check our receipt again and yes there was the answer. We bought one pack of biscuits and it was there, with the price of IDR 239.000! Darn! When I checked the items, the price is only IDR 23.900. HELLO!!!! No wonder why we pay that expensive. After some complains, they give our money back (Oh yeah, they better do it. Or it will go to the newspaper!) LOL!

Things done, another thing comes. So, I moved my car to another parking lot. Oh, this is going to be a long story (this part alone).

I was queueing to enter the parking area, when this stupid f*cking car (sorry, I can't help myself not to mention it) tries to get in front of my car. Well ofcourse when the car in front make a move, I have no intention to let this stupid-damn-car pass me by. Yes, finally I got in first. I took my ticket and parked my car in the available lot. And this stupid-damn-car did not take it. He stopped behind my parked car, and get out of his car right there. My Mom got out first while I turned off the engine.
The man sitting beside the driver said, "WHERE IS THE DRIVER" and then I got out my car.
I can see clearly they stunned seeing a woman instead of a man out of the care. Then he said "OH! YOU ARE LUCKY YOU'RE A WOMAN. IF YOU ARE A MAN, I WOULD HAVE HIT YOU RIGHT ON YOUR FACE."
and the driver said to me, "DO YOU THINK IT'S ALLOWED TO GET IN THE WAY LIKE THAT?"
I said to him "EXCUSE ME, SIR! BUT DON'T YOU SEE THAT I WAS QUEUEING BEFORE YOU?"
"YES, I CAN SEE THAT, BUT I ALMOST PASS THIS ENTRANCE, SO I HAVE TO GO RIGHT NEXT TO YOU SO I WOULD MISS THE ENTRANCE. YOU ARE NOT SUPPOSE TO INSIST TO GET IN FRONT OF ME LIKE THAT!!!! WHAT ARE YOU? A RACER?"
I would really love to answer him: Oh yeah, it has always been my desire to be a car racer. Do you mind? Fuck off! (but I don't do that! Haha. I just realized that I still have not enough guts to do that. Shoot!)
Then my Mom tried to cool things down. I was really mad. I would love to spit on his face. Kick his butt and hit him on his freakin' face. From the appearance, he looked like an army or so. I'm not saying that all army are bad, but this one, hey go to hell! (Ooops again)
Before leaving, he said to me like this "DON'T YOU DARE TALKING TO ME ABOUT DISCIPLINES. I KNOW THAT BETTER THAN YOU DO."
Feeling angry, I just starred at him and said "OH, THANK YOU, SIR!!!" and I walked away...

But then again, when my head had become clearer, I think HE IS REALLY DAMN STUPID! If he really know that good about disciplines (like he said to me before) and when he realized that he's wrong at the first place, then he should have let me pass first instead of insisting to go first??? THINK BEFORE YOU TALK, MISTER! YOU DAMN FOOL!

If only I can counter him with that answer, I bet he would find another excuses to try winning this debate. FREAK!!!!!! I'm done with this. Lesson learned today. Next time I face another problem, I would give that answer. (But I don't wish for another thing happen ever again. Coz to be honest, my heart was pounding back there. Hihi. In between mad and stunned also)

Oh no! Now I feel sleepy after taking my medicine. Special thanks to Mr. Linsign who then reminds me to have a Big heart, Big smile, and then I will have a Big opportunity to success. Amen.

Cursing and then asking for forgiveness,
coffee.stains

April 03, 2009

Silent sigh.

Crazy is the only word hanging in my mind right now.

It is crazy how things seem to attached to me this past two weeks. Not only two weeks I guess, it might be more than just that. The whole craziness started when I made my decisions on taking more chances in everything.

I'm not whining, but yes there are a lot of sighs and all that things around the sighs. I even find myself hard to breathe at many times. Will absolutely ask for a day off to go to the hospital for general check-ups. (Yeah, I think I would definitely need that). For my own sake and for the future's sake. Ha! (bla..bla..bla..)

Details:
Working until midnight, wake up late in the morning has been my routines lately. Tried to work things out, but I can't find myself a time to have fun (yet). I even don't have a time on the weekend. Yes I know this is the risks I've been waiting for. The sacrifices I have to deal with in order to make my dream comes true. It will be fine, really. Remember, I am not whining. I am writing all these things down only to make more spaces (there) in my heart. To breathe easily. (Ha, denial!)

I wish these will soon be over. All the craziness on my working load. I am not whining yet feeling depressed. Or, should I whine now?

Finally whining,
coffee.stains