Don't expect much

Well, everyone has something to expect.

But I don't think I want to expect too much. I just hate it when I don't get my expectations. It's bringing me down to the lowest limit. The BOTTOM!

I'm not talking about anything, so no worries. I'm just saying my thoughts.

And oh by the way, I got this bruises on my body. Almost all over my body. I had blue dots and it's kinda hurts when I press it gently. I had one on my left hand, two on my right hand, and a few on my right leg. Nice, eh? Shoot!

And I just feel my booty hurt. *LOL*

And after this long day full of injuries, I feel very tired and I had this sleepy eyes which want to close right away. Great! It would be lovely to have a sleep now. Can I, camp director?

Sleepy and tired,
coffee.stains

Chinese Masters

The kids got me.

Instead of me getting the kids flipped out, they got me! So we are playing chinese masters just now. We leader are suppose to make fun of them. Make them do anything we said. But then somehow, these kids are coming to me. Asking if I am the chinese masters of Tiger and I said no. And all of a sudden, they tickled me for like one minute! Oh gosh...I feel like laughing and pee in my pants (but thank God I didn't) LOL. But I get myself this Max Tea Tarik made for me. Hahaha.

Well, I think I'm going now. Since I don't know what else to write. If I feel like continue, I will do it later on. Oh! I miss Indonesia, Jakarta, Home, Pappoo and all my friends. But I think I will survive out here.

Doing good,

Coffee.stains

I'm not expecting that to happen.

I don't know what's got in to me today!

Somehow under the pressure, you can say what you feel really good. Yeah, I cried today. In the leaders' meeting. How cool is that?! Or it's not cool at all to be exact. So I've been under pressure for like 3 days. Did I tell you I don't feel fit in among the leader? Yeah, well..

So today we were like sitting in the leaders room doing our meeting and suddenly, I don't know why this topic came up! Gustav, the camp director was asking about today and how it we felt about it. We were sitting in a circle like usual. But after the first discussion, he then was asking about how do we feel. Rassil had a chance to go first. And since this is also her first time and she somehow cried on that session. Well I guess that encourage me to speak up about how I felt the past few days. And when it comes to my turn, I was not thinking and what I remember was I said, if I might be honest with you guys: I agree with Rassil. This is my first time in CISV and being a leader. I feel like I'm being left behind and I know nothing and bla bla bla. I can't remember. LOL. I just don't expect myself saying all those feelings. But it feels great though. I feel releaved now. I can't believe I was crying out there, in front of the other leader. But they manage to take it really well. They support me really good. Especially Gustav, he take a really good care of me. All my insecurity somehow go down another level. I feel like all eyes were on me. That is not good, but I thank God for giving me strength to tell them and good that Gustav brings the issue up. He called and talk to me personally when everybody is leaving the room and I cried again! Perfect! LOL!

I think I did well today. It feels good. Really. I don't know what else to write. So I guess I'll just stop!

Continue planning,
Coffee.stain

Conflicts and resolution.

Hey, I'm a bit dizzy here.

I got this part in making activities related to conflicts and resolutions. And I have some thoughts that might be useful. I think I'm going to start telling yuou my stories.

Since the delegations is going to plan for the whole camp, for the next two days, it's our part as a leader to plan activities that might be a guidance to the delegations. We are all hoping all those activities will be useful for them in planning and making activities for the whole coming camp.

So me, Stiuopa and William has this part in making activities regarding the conflicts and resolutions thingee. What I had in mind is it would be so much easier for the kids to extract the means of this activities through simulating the conflicts itself.

It could be done by:
1. Dividing the delegations into some groups (let's say 9 groups)
2. Give each groups different cases that might occur during the camp (since the camp theme we have is same same but different) or they might be asked to identify the conflicts themselves.
3. They would have to present it in front of the other groups and let the other think of the resolutions.

And I was also thinking maybe it would be great if each leaders has the resolution in hand so we could compare it to the kids' resolutions. So that the activity would be related to the camp theme. Here also we could show them that conflicts can always be solved and there are several ways on how to. And conflicts are not always bad but it is also good in some ways. It makes them learn how to be mature enough to make relationships or friendships works on its best way.

What do you think?
Coffee.stains

In Sweden.

Hey! If there's anyone notice, this is my first blog from Sweden.

And if anyone is asking why am I in Sweden, then here's the story for you.

I joined this international organization called CISV (Children International Summer Village) like 3 or 4 months ago. I've been introduced to CISV by one of my funky boss in my office.

Now that I've passed all the interviews, trainings, pre-camp we had back in Jakarta, I really get my chance to go to Sweden. It's kind of my dream fulfillment! Because I always wanted to make or do something that's related to the peace thingy. And somehow, God answered my pray.

This is only could have happened because the people in my office is so cool. They gave me chances to experienced things to open my mind and eyes to the other side of the world. I would want to thank them right now. Because without them, I would have failed being here now. In Sweden! I could not imagine. It's still feels like dreaming. Having myself, stepping my foots in another country. On my own, bringing the kids. So I am the only adults in this trip. How cool is that?!?

I've been traveling with four kids. They are Fajar, Kyla, Ryan and Tessa. Yes, two couples.

I think I'm going to describe them tomorrow. Coz right now, I feel like sleeping. After all the activities we've done today to welcome all the delegations who are coming to the camp after staying at the host parents for 2 nights. We made a welcome ceremony just outside the camp. It's a really big school. So we gathered around making a circle outside the dinning room. We do an energizer a bit and then we took them to the music room which quite need a walk from the field. The air was good. It's a bit cold and windy. We can feel the cold wind on our skin, since we're Indonesian are not use to it. But it's cool though. There are 36 kids on that field. 18 boys and 18 girls. Plus 9 leaders and 3 staffs. So basically, there are 9 countries sending in 4 kids for each (2 boys + 2 girls). These countries are Sweden, Indonesia, Italy, Austria, Lebanon, Netherlands, Canada, Norway and Spain.

We had a quick welcome ceremony in the music room, activities and also a small party. Everyone was dancing and were having a lot of fun. I can tell! I even danced to the music and also took part on making a covered song (I'm yours by Jason Mraz)

These are the lyrics (you might want to sing it for me when I'm back to Jakarta!)

Title: We’re yours!

Oh, we’re glad to have all of you here in the camp, dear
We come from different nations, with lots of expectations
We will have fun in this camp
And we know we’ll get there

Now before we start the camp, we want you to get along, dear
Nothing’s gonna stop us all from having happy time here
Yes, we all have differences
But inside we’re the same

But we won’t hesitate
No more, no more
We can not wait. We’re yours!


Happy singing,
coffee.stains